Every week I write this blog to address mostly work related concepts. Every once in a while when something important comes up or I am feeling that I want to go into something more personal I write about it. I mostly have written with the idea that I am contributing to in my own way to help people.
A few weeks ago I wrote about our family friend Rebecca. I was moved by how many people responded to that post and how people reached out to me. I am not sure about how others write but I find myself backspacing and writing over what I say often because I am concerned that I am not getting my thoughts out effectively. When it comes to writing for business, it isn’t hard to put the words down because I am addressing things that I consider logical or factual. It is difficult with emotional concepts though and frankly I am a sensitive person.
Today is different. I have backspaced a few times but I am just writing out what I am thinking here without major concern. I normally think about what I will write about during the week and I will talk about concepts or concerns with close friends. I try to share with purpose. I was thinking this week about how cloud computing has taken a turn for the worse. I read those information weekly trade magazines all the time and I get a mailbox full of those different IT magazines. You know the ones with the articles that are hidden advertisements with a hint of honesty thrown in for good measure. I was then thinking about writing about how all these holidays are bullshit and frustrating especially since I live towards the south and most people down here don’t understand much about Jews. Those were some of the things until yesterday. I normally write on Sundays it is a good close to the end of the week and beginning of the next. Today is Saturday but I didn’t want to wait until tomorrow to have nothing to write about so I am writing today.
Yesterday morning we got a phone call from our bank that our credit cards were used in California and somewhere else. Of course it was a very nice robot call “You have an account that has suspicious activity, if you are *** please hit the number 1.” Great! Well at least I am thankful for the protection, it was only a few months ago that someone broke into my car while my family was at a park and took my wife’s purse. Now we will have to go through the drill of getting new cards and billing and…… then in the early afternoon while I was contributing to a work related discussion on how my company is moving paid time off around it happened. It was the same thing as 9-11 to me, I could only watch in horror. Then all of the social channels lit up like fire and the media storm started. For me the first thing I had seen was 10 children were killed and then some how it turned to 20 people and then 27. Facebook was swelling with posts that forced it to stream like water. Then I lost my words..
Death comes for us all, one way or another. My son just asked “who is G-d’s mother?” and “What if he didn’t have one?” as I am I writing this. He doesn’t have any idea of what happened yesterday, we didn’t tell the kids.. yet. So, this morning I am reflecting on the conversation I had with my friend Frank the other day about death. I am thinking about all the things that were important to me in the morning as opposed to all of the things that are important to me today. Our world is ending in 2012, we have not evolved we have revolved. We forget everything history teaches us and for all of our technology and our sophistication we are ignorant adult children.
- Our government has us in debt.
- Our politicians are all liars and out for themselves individually.
- Any honest Journalist is pushed out of the news business.
- Our children can’t play outside.
- We are robbed while we work, play and live and don’t know it until someone lets us know.
- Everything that is built and sold is crap.
- All of the technology I own is not finished.
- My clothes were made by slaves.
- There is still genocide.
- We are more threatened today by nuclear and chemical attacks then ever before in history.
- We live in fear.
- We don’t have work.
- We are fighting wars that we can’t and won’t win.
- Our children… OUR CHILDREN are killed.
The list can go on and on. I am an American and I am angry and I am hurt and I am frustrated and I don’t even know what to do about it because everywhere I look people are corrupted by fear and politics. 2012 is the end, it has to be because what we are doing as a society isn’t working. I have no idea what is next and I guarantee that the families of the children in Connecticut don’t know either.